Lonliness. I'm amazed at how many people don't know the pain of lonliness. I'm glad they haven't had to experience it but I also think it is a disadvantage.
I didn't get married until I was 29. I lived alone for alot of years and my teen years were filled with exfreme lonliness with my parents working a lot and my brother had a license and a job so I had a lot of time alone.
I work with two women that others hate. These women talk alot and I've come to realize that they aren't terrible people, they are just lonely. I ask them about movies and other small things in their lives and we have pleasant conversations. It's because I understand where they are coming from.
Imagine for a second that you aren't married. You have no kids and no family nearby. You go to work and you come home. You live alone. Wouldn't you feel lonely too? Who would you talk to about the movie you rented, or the jerk at the store who cut in front of you?
My cousin is mentally ill and is making his way in the court system. Imagine now that you're not married, no kids and family is semi distant, now put a mental illness on top. Do you think you'd feel isolated and alone? I imagine that's how my cousin feels and it makes me sad. I want to be there for him because I have felt that lonliness. My family thinks I'm just a sensitve nutcase who doesn't see Ryan for what he is. But I think they were lucky enough to never feel alone.
I'm rambling at this point and everyone will think I'm a nutjob but I feel sadness for my cousin. That's all.
