Happy Fathers Day

My dad is not like any other dad. Growing up my dad was the one to comfort me when a boy broke my heart (which happened too many times). He has been there to help me at a moments notice when my car has died, when something in the house has broken or other random problems I have.




I think no matter how old I get I will always need my dad.

Happy fathers day to my dad!

My Grandpa, who passed away 8 years ago also deserves a mention. I loved him a lot. His death was hard for me because I was his "pumpkin", Grandpa's girl. He was there for me too when I needed him. I recall one night when I still lived with my parents I came home from WCC late. I got on the phone and heard a knock on the door. I said "who is it?" and got no response. The knocking continued and it scared me to death. I hung up with my friend and called my grandpa. My grandpa and uncle Dave were there in less than a minute with flashlights and ready to kick some ass. They walked around the house and never found anyone but I think about that and how quickly they came to help me. I have been lucky to have a close family, to have a dad and grandpa who love me so much.

Happy fathers day!

Lonliness

Lonliness. I'm amazed at how many people don't know the pain of lonliness. I'm glad they haven't had to experience it but I also think it is a disadvantage.

I didn't get married until I was 29. I lived alone for alot of years and my teen years were filled with exfreme lonliness with my parents working a lot and my brother had a license and a job so I had a lot of time alone.

I work with two women that others hate. These women talk alot and I've come to realize that they aren't terrible people, they are just lonely. I ask them about movies and other small things in their lives and we have pleasant conversations. It's because I understand where they are coming from.

Imagine for a second that you aren't married. You have no kids and no family nearby. You go to work and you come home. You live alone. Wouldn't you feel lonely too? Who would you talk to about the movie you rented, or the jerk at the store who cut in front of you?

My cousin is mentally ill and is making his way in the court system. Imagine now that you're not married, no kids and family is semi distant, now put a mental illness on top. Do you think you'd feel isolated and alone? I imagine that's how my cousin feels and it makes me sad. I want to be there for him because I have felt that lonliness. My family thinks I'm just a sensitve nutcase who doesn't see Ryan for what he is. But I think they were lucky enough to never feel alone.

I'm rambling at this point and everyone will think I'm a nutjob but I feel sadness for my cousin. That's all.